P*sspoor start to the week

Miserable, just absolutely miserable. Weather sucks so I can't run. Treadmill aggravates the knee so I can't run. I am going to have to start right back up walking 1 minute *grrrrr* Sunday is the Mid Winter Blues run and it is forecasted to be a high of 15, low of 9. Which means it will be 15 degrees at 3 pm and the race is at 9:45 am. Man, I just don't think I am that tough..... My dogs are stir crazy, can't get out for walks. If it warms up enough, the road salt hurts their feet. I tried paw wax but that only lasts for so long. How did the Native Americans and settlers do it? I sent an invoice yesterday and the address was something like Loma Rosa Catalina road or something. That was good for a half hour day dream about how it must be like to live somewhere place where they name the roads Loma Rosa Catalina instead of Snowbank Way.

Son #1 took off the other day for who knows where. Somewhere out west. I feel like I just sent a little model boat adrift in the big huge ocean, all at mercy of the currents, the sea life and huge passing ocean liners.

I interviewed for a job, that I want, that I can do great and I don't think I am going to get it. Why? Because I am a lousy interview. Inspite of hours of coaching, practice sessions and all of B's career center expertise - I went in and choked. It is one thing not to get a job because you are not right for it. It is another thing to blow the chance at a great job because you suck.

We did our monthly budget fight for February and I am already regretting the extra mortgage money decision. I AM TIRED OF HAVING NO MONEY. NO MONEY. NADA. ZIP. ZILCH. I have been without money before (hey, I was a single parent with 3 small kids, going to school full-time, I know NO MONEY!) But it sucks to have NO MONEY when there is money there, iykwim.

In the depths of my misery, I come across this. I really need to frequent the thrifty, frugal sites more for inspiration and encouragement. Love what you have. That will be my mantra for the week. Love what you have.